I would describe myself as a “Martha” from the Bible_ quite the control freak, well not pedantically so, but I love having my ducks in a row, I make lists for everything and even when I say I’m having a ‘hippy-kinda’ day I somewhat have a plan in place. So for me to be chilled about only having a R200 for a two month trip was a little super crazy_ well for any one actually lol.
We were planning on selling my car around this time though and I was sure my parents would send some of the funds my way. On the Tuesday of that week, I was on my way home with this very car from the mechanic and enroute I watched as the heat gage went from normal to super- hot in a matter of seconds. And as the gage went up so did my anger. I WAS FURIOUS! I just got back from the mechanic! Was he not supposed to fix it and God? Was this not supposed to be my way of not worrying about money??? I could have screamed!!! When I got back home, I needed to vent and calm down, so I prayed, wrote and read my bible. By the time I opened my bible I was crying like a baby coz this is not supposed to happen this way. I opened up my bible to a random verse and my eyes flew on Jeremiah 31v16 & 17: “Thus says the Lord: `Refrain your voice from weeping and your eyes from tears; For your work shall be rewarded, says the Lord. And they shall come back from the land of the enemy. There is hope in your future says the Lord, That your children shall come back to their own border`”. WOW!! Thank You Jesus. I immediately calmed down. It was going to be ok.
That very night I had a dream: I was packing up chairs with my youth leader and friend, Gillian, who at that time I didn’t know quite well never mind friends, and I was afraid to ask her about the money she had promised to give me(in the dream still). She was meant to give me something like 17586. She said she’s sorting it out but I shouldn’t worry about it and start getting excited because the money is already mine. I woke up with such a fresh faith! I didn’t even care about the numbers; all that I remembered was “Start getting excited and stop worrying, the money is yours”.
That Saturday I went to a woman’s prayer meeting and shared my story and this dream with the ladies. All of these ladies generously sowed into my life and the mission. One lady told me she doesn’t have anything on her at that moment, but she’ll come around to my house the next day. The next day, this woman who I hardly knew, the night before was only the 2nd time I’ve seen her, this lady presented me with an envelope with R7000 in it!! WOW!! Thank You Jesus. I cried so much as I counted. God is so good.
I gave my tithes and paid my daddy back for the travel insurance that he helped out with and when you added all the money that everyone sowed into my life plus my R200 lol and you convert it to Thai Baht, it works out to 17568 Thai Baht! WOW! Thank You Jesus. Can you believe it??
As you know, I’m about to embark on another mission trip and that means I would need funds. My church is not a missionary sending church so I’ll have to go to individuals. I am not very confident and bold when it comes to asking people for money and sponsorships. So I’m praying a lot about that and reminding myself that it’s not for me, but for the growth of God’s Kingdom. Just today, I was emailing my pastor in Thailand and I asked what advice he had for me. And one point he gave me was that to make sure that I have enough funds. Right there, I just went back into a ball knowing that I need to step up_ but not as bad as I used to. I have a child like faith about this_ knowing that my God will supply all my needs according to His riches. And just now, as I was having quiet time, He reminded me again in Matthew 16v8-10: “But Jesus, being aware of it, said to them “O you of little faith, why do you reason among yourselves because you have brought no bread? Do you not yet understand or remember the five loaves of the five thousand and how many baskets you took up? Or the seven loaves of the four thousand and how many large baskets you took up?” – I know that Jesus was speaking to the disciples about the doctrines of the Pharisees and the Sadducees but also He was reminding them of His past miracles.
In the same way that He is now reminding me of His past miracle of provision for me. And it wasn’t just that R7000 once off, during my time in Thailand I would constantly get money in my account unaccounted for, I would get free meals and transport paid for. Once I took a taxi from one part of Bangkok to the other and the driver told me its ok, I don’t need to pay him. God is the God of the impossible. Where He leads, He feeds. So I’m putting on my child like faith knowing that my daddy has got me sorted. I won’t be silly and just wait for something to fall into my lap, I will listen and move as God directs. And I will not worry one bit. In the words of two of my favorite characters Timon and Pumbaa: Hakuna Matata_ No worries. **God’s got this 🙂 . Thank You Jesus!!
I love you, chat soon ^^,